Dizziness is worse than pain

I finally got out of Barnes. The few days right before my hospitalization last week were horrible to me, because Carbondale had been struck by a tornado, leaving us with no power for four days, significantly impacting my grading plans and ABET paperwork before getting into Barnes. But maybe partially due to such a tight work schedule, I had no spare time to get myself nervous for the surgery. Frankly speaking, I shouldn't be scared of it because it's my own choice.

The two days right after the surgery gave me the most pain. If I am asked to grade the pain level over a scale of 1 to 10, I would say 10. But interestingly, maybe because I'm getting older, I feel that I am more capable of bearing pain now. Even though five injections of morphine and dilaudid didn't help me at all in alleviating the pain, I still managed to bear through the two nights. What I found hard to endure was the dizziness and light-headedness resulted from the pain medication. Such drowsiness made me even hard to sit for a few seconds. Then how could I even take my lunches and dinners? What's worst was that such drowsiness was so uncomfortable that it couldn't even make me sleep. I've told my doctor: I'd rather bear pain myself than take those painkiller IVs that cause dizziness.